Have you ever seen someone for the very first time and just knew that someday you would fall in love with them. That’s how my story began with him. I saw him from across the room and just like that, I knew that I had to know him.
Looking back there were probably signs telling me to stop…But something just drew me to him, I wanted to know everything about him. It wasn’t long till we were nearly inseparable. We would stay up late talking, a day was too long not to see each other, we shared our secrets and our fears. And I gave my heart away to him. I thought things could not get any better, it felt like a dream. He was my safe place to run to, the one who took care of me when I was sick and the one I shared so many laughs with.
Soon I found that my biggest priority was him. And the only dream I had was to be with him forever. I lost myself… I forgot the things I dreamed about. I thought the only thing that mattered was my relationship with him. I didn’t concern myself with anyone or anything else. I didn’t know who I was. I only knew that I was his and I thought that was enough. He meant the world to me. And him being my world was completely fine with me, or so I thought.
But then things got tough and we went our separate ways. This left me so broken. I had made him my everything so when things had to end I believed that I had lost everything. I didn’t know what mattered to me anymore. I didn’t have any dreams, he was my dream. I felt empty.
It was months before I really started to pick up the pieces and try to put myself back together. It wasn’t for a very long time that I even realized that I had forgotten myself, I forgot who I wanted to be and I forgot the dreams and gifts that God had given me.
I put my relationship above all other priorities, even above the calling God had put on my life. I was able to be so destroyed by a relationship because I forgot the things God had called me to. I forgot the purpose God had for my life was so much bigger than being somebody’s girlfriend.
I forgot that God had called me and you, to love other as ourselves. I couldn’t do that with my vision so clouded with myself and my relationship. I couldn’t see anyone else’s hurts because I was so consumed by own relationship and my own hurts.
Don’t forget that God has a plan for you. He has so much more in store for you. Don’t allow yourself to become so consumed with a relationship that you forget that you were made for a purpose that is even greater than you could imagine.